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"Do
you think this is a good idea?"
They
were driving home, and Tabitha had been lost in thinking about
how this would be one of the last times she would ever ride alongside
her husband in a car. She was imagining a horse and buggy, maybe
a covered wagon, and almost wistfully leaned forward to adjust
the heating vents.
Edward
didn't hesitate in his answer. "Yes, I think it is. This
world isn't right for us, not anymore."
Tabitha
had agreed, less enthusiastically than the others, but she was
supportive of Edward in everything. At least in public.
"Isn't
there a way to change this world? We could organize, get involved,
do something
in the community. Couldn't we do something..."
Tabitha's
voice trailed off as Edward sighed. They'd done those things,
tried every
support group and action group and citizen patrol. The newspapers
were bloodier than ever and nothing they'd done stopped the shootings,
the murders, the cold-blooded wars in inner-city America.
They
passed the cemetery where his father was buried and Tabitha watched
as Edward bit
the inside of his cheek to keep from speaking.
"A
horse and buggy," she said, "in a world without guns."
xxxx
Edward was excited, giddy, almost zealous in his enthusiasm for
this project. In the months
leading up to their staggered departures (they left in groups
of four, not wanting to
attract attention), their group meetings had become classes on
survival, history, even
19th century linguistics. Edward led each of these lessons, each
one more thorough
than the last. The women took up sewing, teaching themselves and
sharing ideas.
Tabitha
had experience in quilting and basic sewing, and took a course
at the college
on making homemade jellies and jams. She had grown up, for a time,
on a working
Pennsylvania farm, and she already knew how to pluck chickens.
She thought she could
kill a pig, if she had to. Maybe. The other women looked to her
for guidance, and
occasionally solace as they faced the unknown for yet another
time in their lives.
They
started with a couple of tents and sleeping bags apiece, some
food that would
quickly run out, and axes, rope, basic building tools. A few of
them had wanted to
start with even less, until Edward pointed out that early settlers
had also come from
civilized places to start anew on the frontier, and would have
had some provisions. Edward
arranged for supplies to be sent ahead, things that might be found
in any common, rural
American town. In 1870.
The
Walkers were the first ones to go, of course, and the Hunts went
with them, little
Lucius without a father and Alice without a husband. The others
would follow every
weekend. In the end, only three people opted not to come at all,
and they were paid
handsomely for their silence.
The
women made bread on Saturday, and the men took turns leading worship
services on Sunday. The rest of the week was spent in various
kinds of work, at first in building and planting and later in
upkeep and harvest. They were cold for awhile but acclimated,
their bodies remembering what they were capable of doing.
The
first illness was a fever and chills, but nothing out of the ordinary,
and they had
learned the skills they needed to work through it. August Richardson
would remember that
later, when his wife and children lay buried in the cemetary that
was once just a pretty
hill in the meadow.
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It took exactly a month for Edward Walker to fall in love with
Alice Hunt.
It
took exactly one day more than that for Tabitha Walker to realize
it.
Edward
was always oblivious to the way he acted and spoke, especially
when he was in a
fit of passion over some idea he had. The women were knitting
(Tabitha was better than
Alice), and he was sitting on a log nearby, giving them an impromptu
lecture on 19th
century methods for dying fabric. Tabitha was used to these lectures
and sat patiently
through this one, but Alice began laughing halfway through it
and distracted Edward so
much that he stopped to stare at her.
"What
is it you find so amusing, Alice?" His voice had a flirting
lilt to it that
immediately pricked Tabitha's ear.
"Nothing
out of the ordinary, Edward. Just...you're so excited about dying
fabric, maybe you should attempt it yourself?" She laughed
again, looking at Edwards' shirt, which was a splotchy dark blue.
Tabitha's
face burned darkly and she focused again on her knitting, but
not before taking notice of the sound Edward's laugh mingled with
Alice's.
The
next week, Tabitha re-dyed that shirt and others, and vowed to
make sure that Alice
never had a chance to comment on her homemaking again, however
slightly.
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Edward noticed his feelings for Alice some time after that, once
the houses were built and the meeting hall completed. They were
having a townhall meeting, and Vivian Percy was expounding on
the need for crop rotation or some such thing when Edward and
Alice shared an amused glance.
It
lit him up inside, and when he lifted his eyes once more, Alice
was looking right back at him, unabashedly. They seemed to speak
to each other in that moment, saying everything that was forbidden,
but loving and true and real. Edward felt his cheeks turn red
and excused himself for a moment, standing outside in the wind
to try and calm down. Tabitha hadn't been there, she was feeling
low because of the weather change and stayed home. Thank God.
When
he went back inside, he looked at Alice for just one moment, and
he hoped his face
conveyed what he would never be able to say aloud. For her child
was safely sleeping
nearby, and he was married to an expectant wife himself.
After
that day, he did not touch Alice, and he only spoke to her when
it was of utmost
importance.
Tabitha
had once imagined that she would prefer it that way, but in the
end she grew
weary of Edward petting her in front of the others and insisted
on decorum. No
one else suspected anything, and in time Alice forgot anything
had even happened.
Tabitha,
however, held a grudge in a world that no longer allowed them.
xxxx
Tabitha went into labor on a sunny summer morning. To call it
difficult would be a kindness;
they had no painkillers or other drugs to help her along. In the
"towns" (their new word
for the world they had left behind), it might have gone much quicker.
She might not have
needed four weeks of recovery. But then, Tabitha wasn't a particularly
strong woman by
nature, and they were counting themselves lucky that she'd gotten
as far as she did.They
counted themselves blessed when the child was finally born, after
nearly thirty-six
hours of labor.
Victor
was a champion through it all, however, with Alice by his side
as a makeshift nurse.
All the village waited to see what would come of this; other women
were expecting and it was a tense time for them all. Not just
because of childbirth, either; these children would go
without innoculation, and face anything that was thought eradicated
but truthfully only
lurked in corners of the world as remote as theirs. If Victor
could pull Tabitha through,
they might have a little more faith in country medicine.
The
Walkers' daughter was a red-faced slip of a girl that they named
Katherine. She was
quickly nicknamed Kitty by half the village, and it stuck. She
was the first child and she was followed promptly by children in
the Nicholson, Coin, and Percy families.
A
bountiful summer, Edward called it during his late August turn
as preacher in the village.
They
gave thanks and the elders avoided, for a short time, discussing
how they might keep
their children close, as they grew curiouser and curiouser with
age.
Covington
Woods loomed closer every year.
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Tabitha tried to find a way to thank Alice for her kindness during
the complicated labor.
When she could stand for longer periods of time and go about the
daily business of running
a rural 1870s household, she made pies for her nurse, and gave
her the first jars of blueberry jam of the season. Tabitha was
the reigning queen of the kitchen in the village; the others were
learning from her, but sweets and complicated delicacies were
still Tabitha's domain. Of the other women, Alice was having the
hardest time doing much more than cooking stew for herself and
little Lucius.
She
finally decided to invite Alice over for tea one day when the
men when hunting. Alice accepted, bringing Lucius with her. He
was getting big, outgrowing clothes faster than the women could
sew them, and Tabitha and Alice shared a quick laugh about how
they knew why shortpants had been all the rage for little boys
so long ago.
Not
long ago, though. The metal box under the Walkers' staircase gleamed
at the women and
quieted their laughing.
"Alice,
I want to thank you for what you did for me. I don't know that
Kitty and I would have survived that awful night without you and
Victor."
Alice
sipped her tea and looked at Tabitha, her expression frank and
open. "You and I have
been friends for a long time. I wouldn't have done less,"
her voice broke over this last word, "and I couldn't have.
We need you here."
Tabitha
watched Alice wipe her eyes with a measure of surprise. She had
expected Alice's
usual candor, but she thought it would expose some return of the
feelings Edward had toward Alice. She hadn't expected...friendship?
"I
know that none of you trust me. None of the women, that is,"
said Alice, stopping Tabitha's protest with her raised hand. "Why
they trust Mrs. Clack and not myself is not much of a mystery,
but there you have it. I am single and raising my son alone. It
is difficult, with only Lucius for warmth in our drafty wooden
house." Her voice held no bitterness; she merely stated fact.
Alice smiled at her son, who sat on floor playing with a toy horse
August Nicholson had carved for him.
"I
did the same for all of you as you gave birth, because you are
all helping to foster the growth of our little experiment. But
Tabitha, I did it for you because I want us to be friends. I keep
thinking that it would be better to see by candlelight or lamplight
if I have someone to sit next to and sew with. Will you?"
Alice
picked up her teacup again but did not sip from it. She looked
down at her lap
and Tabitha knew it was imperative to reply in some way.
How
could she? She thought of Edward's glances, of Alice's flirtatious
voice. She knew the other wives were feeling particularly jealous
since their arrival in the village, but she also felt she was
the only one who had cause.
She
could say something now. She could quash Alice's hopes and send
her away in tears,
or she could change the conversation altogether and freeze her
out as she'd been trying to do since that day with the fabric
dye.
But
Tabitha watched Alice for a moment, thinking back to the days
before they'd come here,
when Alice's husband was killed and she was left with her newborn
son in an increasingly
cruel world. They'd come here to escape cruelty, come to shape
a new world. If Tabitha
deliberately shut Alice out of her life, she risked the other
women following suit.
Tabitha was, by default, their role model. And she had vowed to
leave cruelty and petty
meanness behind with all the other baggage of the "modern"
world in the towns.
Lucius
held up his horse and giggled, breaking the heavy silence. "Wook!
Horsey!" He got up and toddled over to the wooden cradle
that held a cooing Kitty. He waved the horse over the cradle and
Kitty reached for it, laughing.
Alice
and Tabitha watched and when they looked away, their eyes met
and they both started laughing. Alice's face was full of hope.
Tabitha
felt her heart tug and she reached over to take Alice's hand.
"We will always be friends, I swear it to you."
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From
that day forward, the Hunt and Walker families were the closest
in the village. The
other women found new things to be jealous of, like Tabitha and
Alice going for long walks
while Edward watched the children (their own husbands only ever
did so grudgingly) and
the confidence the women kept. But the jealousy was only ever
minor, and soon Tabitha's
station in the village was shared by Alice. They were the height
of fashion, decorum, and
study, and never once did they appear to quarrel. When
the elders formed the idea of making their horror stories come
alive, Tabitha and Alice
held a private council between themselves and decided to support
the idea. Even Edward, who
had his reservations, was won over by the women's championing
of the cause.
"For
our future," said Alice. Tabitha nodded, and the elders voted
unianimously to support
the idea. Robert Percy went to work the next morning creating
horrific costumes for himself,
August, Edward, and Victor.
The
first village raid was staged, appropriately, on what would have
been Halloween in their
old lives. Lucius was all of four years old, and had started all
of this when he had begun
asking to go for walks in Covington Woods. One day he'd simply
run from his mother's side
to the very edges of the forest, and scared her so badly that
she had taken the issue to
Tabitha and Edward that very night.
Lucius
hid under the bed when the monsters came up to the door of their
home. Alice attempted to coax him out but he wouldn't move; he
ended up crying himself to sleep amidst the dust that had collected
there. Tabitha brought Kitty and newborn Ivy with her on her morning
visit the next day; it was only the sound of visitors that brought
Lucius from his hiding place.
He
was a quiet boy after that day, careful and a little shy. He would
sit on the porch and
watch the woods, and when asked he told his mother he was waiting.
She did not question him further.
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"Tabitha?"
"Yes,
Edward?" She was bathing Ivy in a metal tub they had brought
from the towns.
"Are
you happy here?"
She
looked up and wiped the sweat from her forehead with her wrist,
dragging soap bubbles
across her brow. She looked at her husband, who stood in the doorway
with his hat in his
hands, fidgeting like he only ever did when he was unsure of himself
and asking for her
approval.
"Edward,
look at me."
He
looked.
"Not
a day goes by that I regret that place. That life. I am happy
here. But that begs the
question - are you?"
Edward
stared at his women in turn. At Kitty, on a chair he made and
playing with a doll her
mother had made. At Ivy, giggling in the bathwater and playing
with bubbles in a metal tub
intended for a feeding trough. At Tabitha, in her homespun clothes
and her hand-stitched apron.
And
finally, he looked at the wall, as if to bore through it with
his glance to find Alice in
the village garden, digging up potatoes for storage.
"I
am happy here, my darling wife." He walked over and kissed
her forehead, wiping the bubbles from her face as he did so.
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THE END
Title
taken from "Love's Spite" by Aubrey Thomas De Vere,
found
here.
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