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Truth
be told, Will Bailey never had loved his job in the West Wing.
He enjoyed it; he always enjoyed a challenge. Love wasnt
a word he would use, though, because he thought of love in terms
of passion, and he was not passionate about what he did. He was
just good at it, he was one of the best.
Hed
gotten a dead man elected, hadnt he?
Will
didnt have passions. He was good at what he did; he always
had been. When he was twelve he could parse Latin phrases and
conjugate French verbs. When he was seven he could build the boxed
rocket sets without using the instructions. If he asked his mother,
he was sure he had also weaned faster and talked sooner than any
other baby, and it wouldnt be maternal hyperbole.
Passions,
though, escaped him. Not that he wanted them. He liked pushing
hard enough to get something done, and then he would take a vacation.
France for the big wins, Atlantic City for the smaller ones. Or
maybe the Poconos.
The
West Wing had presented challenges, so Will Bailey thrived there.
He particularly enjoyed his vacations back then.
Working
for Bob Russell had proved no less challenging. It wasnt
the same sort of challenge. Will had to make Russell. There never
had been a need to make Josiah Bartlet. Bartlet came with everything,
and if there had once been a warranty and cellophane wrapping,
it wouldnt have surprised Will at all. Russell was cheap
plywood and you had to keep track of all those tiny screws. A
challenge because how does one make something like that shine?
Will
Bailey liked challenges, and that made the job with Russell worth
it. There was nothing passionate about Bob Russell, there was
even less that was passionate about Will Bailey, and so it worked.
Victories came often, and Will really did like the south of France.
The
campaign, though.
The
campaign.
The
day Horton Wilde had come to Will and asked him to run that campaign,
Will was still a little starry-eyed. Toby Ziegler would have laughed
that Will Bailey out of his office, note from Sam Seaborn or not.
The cost of a campaign no one thought they would win was Wills
idealism. Sams note had said that Will was one of
them, but he hadnt been in the West Wing very long
before he knew Sam had been imagining things.
Will
Bailey was someone outside of that tight, driven circle. He would
listen to Toby sometimes and wonder how a man his age, who had
seen what hed seen, could really be idealistic. Passionate.
Those were qualities to outgrow, not acquire.
The
campaign to elect Bob Russell seemed a no-brainer. Will should
have known; in the beginning, there was no challenge. No spark.
He wasnt upset that Russell was pragmatic and realistic
and even a little non-chalant about getting the nomination. Everyone
knew John Hoynes would misstep somewhere, and really, there wasnt
any other competition! Will Bailey had gotten a dead man elected.
The popular wisdom inside the beltway was that he could get anyone
elected!
When
Donna joined them, Will began to know.
Bartlet
had been what College Democrats think of as the real thing.
There was a story in the West Wing about how Sam Seaborn had joined
the campaign, how Josh Lyman had just shown up at Gage Whitney
and the look on his face was enough for Sam to know that Bartlet
was it, the thing that they had imagined when they were licking
envelopes for state House candidates. The real thing.
Donna
had been there, and her story was that shed arrived in Nashua
with all the insane hope that only a college dropout who ran away
to help on a campaign could possess. Will didnt know that
Donna, but hed heard about her. He imagined she and Elsie
would get along very well. The Donna he worked with, however,
was pragmatic, and she was passionless. She got the job done and
she was the best at what she did.
He
spent maybe a week thinking that she had outgrown the storied
youthfulness (he hesitated to think it was naïveté),
and it probably wasnt even that long. And then he was asking
her out to dinner and finding out for sure that Donna Moss really
just saw this as a way to stay in the game and find her niche.
She expected that they would win, because she bought in to the
beltway mythos, and because who wouldnt expect that the
vice president from the most popular Democratic presidency since
Kennedy would win the next term?
Will
knew it was off. This must have been what it was like to follow
greatness, then. It was being mediocre and not really trying to
fix that, because you know youll never be as great anyway.
You just maintain the status quo.
Will
Bailey had never been status quo.
So
now he stood in an empty convention hall, his tie undone and his
glasses smudged, feeling a headache creep up the back of his neck.
This is what came of hubris, Toby might have said to him. Will
had never believed in hubris. He believed in victories and in
vacations. There were no grand emotions and the human condition
that championed them, that prized passion over accomplishment,
was utterly foreign to him.
Or
so he thought, until that moment only hours ago when he knew the
truth of defeat.
There
was a Santos for President sticker stuck to the bottom of his
shoe.
Pride
goeth before a fall, he murmured.
He
left the hall and didn't look back.
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